gheez ... its been quite awhile ... and this blog has been dead for long period of time ...
doubt anyone will read it ...

then again ... bottled quite a few things inside myself nowhere to release .... guess drafting them on blog would be quite an idea.

My feeling has been in a downward motion. Frankly speaking its just like somehow the world choose to forgo me ... everything crumbles dwn upon me.... it simply just unbearable.

im facing great dealt of stress at work. its a fucked up organisation tht labelled NSF (nation service) AS free/ cheap labour. im an young adult. i too deserve some respect and not to be kick around ... made a fool stab on the back and expect me smiling and continuing my work.

i put on my best behaviour but the organisation just disappoint me. 4 mth to go b4 my ord. i have choosen to hack care wateva is happen. i learnt to be irresponsible and choose not to be Mr nice no more.

when im get back home ... all i ever wanted was peace. but then i face the reluctant truth of my family isnt doing tht well. then my mum will start nagging. Bills starting to pour in. locking up myself in the room, blasting music thru my hi-fi prove its doesnt help to calm me in peace no more.

i start to sort for help b4 i go kaboom .... then friend recommend me to go pick guitar. i sort of help u to calm yourself dwn. indeed .. it kinda work. haaa i master quite a few pieces of song alrdy ... =P ...

Then a lady literally broke my heart ... smash them to pieces. im driven back to slumber. make matter worst ... the day she broke my heart .. i was having duty ... alrdy so sian ... so can imagine .... i practically stone tht whole night in office .... zzzz cant slp ...
Then the rest of the week just went jogging ..and whack my car on the lonely roads at night.

haiz ... its damn freaking arse to have too many combos coming at me ...
... then again ... though im "bleeding" .. at least im alive ....

think yrs later if i look back ... i will be laughing at this entry ...

my voice & words @ 1:43 PM