i broke down and cried today .... since the last incident when i was 10 , when i lost my way in Ngee ang city 8 yrs ago ..... i had not cry tht bitterly so far in 8 yrs because of "fear" ....

today suppose to be a normal day for me , for my family ..... my dad took leave frm the office for the day ..... despite of some problems wif his company .....

we had a wonderful lunch and went paragon to shop till 4+ pm ..... dad decided to go to alexendar road to grab sth ..... so we left orchard ....

i noe my dad is working overseas .... ALONE .... i mean he's the sole bread winner of this family and i admit i sometimes took granted abt this matter ....
Along the way , my mum ask my dad when is he leaving for China again ??? then then started to argue ..... i was sitting beside my dad in the car .... the arguement became louder ..... i overheard of the contents of the arguement .... i was scared .... my heart was wretched and shatted at tht instance .... i dun noe wat to do .... but to stay quiet .... i hold my tears till i got home .... then i sat at a corner beside my bed in my room .... i was crying .... but there wasnt any tears .... but i knew im crying .....

during the arguement ... it really woke me up .... it shook me up and made me to stand firming into 1 decision i made earlier ...after receiving Sem 2 results .... i dun wana fail my dad .... i dun want to see him so stressful .....

his birthday is toward the end of this mth and im nt even sure when is his coming back to singapore for his birthday ....
i dun intend to have dinner tonight ... i dun intend to eat anything for tml .... im locked inside my room ... coz im really tht scare to hear them fight again .....

my voice & words @ 10:04 PM

didnt had a wink last night .... stay up a night to surf hardwarezone for an LCD screen ..... till 7 am .... then i fell alslp ....

then 11 am my dad wake me up ... ask me accompany him go shopping .... then i agree lor .... since he's always at overseas .... working ....
then we went to kallang .... ate sultan prawn mee .... haha .... but then i dun eat prawns so i have pork ribs mee instead .... hmmm quite nice lor ....muz try A . A

then went to starhub centre look for new phone for my mother .... haha .... my mum dunnoe which model to pick so dad bought her N7270 .... then at tht instance ... since daddy is out ... hahah ask him buy a phone for me .... then i change my plan to a all day free incoming as well as buying a new phone ... haha ....

after tht went CKtang to shop .... wahaha .... i went try out some shoes .... wahkao .... got a chio bu serve me ... LOLX .... today is my day man ... LOLX .... my dad funny lor .... cos we wearing "flip flop" .... the shoes boutique got a policy mus wear sock to try their shoes ... haha .... wah biang gave my dad a pair of wet socks .... er xin lor ... and its being used by so many ppl .... so he desperate ... ask the sales person to buy us new pair of sock .... my dad pay ... LOLX buah tahan him .... >.<

then i walk to Far east to shop .... cos CK tang ... not my style lar .... then my parents stayed there lor .... hahah ....

haha .... got back home very shack .... then KO on the bed .... Sianz forget to charge phone .... wah lau ....

then when i wake up .... intend to skip dinner .... then my sis very scarstic ... suan me on diet arh ... no pt lar ... skip this skip tht .... T.T ....
then she ask me to use my comp for 3 wks .... right in front of my dad .... I "L-L" have to give in lor .... wah sianz diao liao lar ... 1 wk to sch reopen .... NO comp to use .... No work to work ..... wah think everyday slp liao lar ..... SUX lar ....

my voice & words @ 11:19 PM

hmmmm another 12 days to sch reopen .... haha ... im bored to death ....
then actually got 300 dollars in my "ferrari cash box " now only left to 50 dollars (excluding my pay which is 250 dollars) after 5 wks ??? 2 wks to go ..... ARGHHHHH .....

facing problems .... cos i got alot of thing to buy but dun which to spurge my money tht easily leh ..... >.< .... caught in between .... arhhhhGGGG .... haha ....

today ... wake up very early .... sianz .... dw songs .... around 10 am alot of ppl complain abt the GEMS thingy .... but my appt is at 1pm .... then around 12 bah .... receive sms say tht the GEMS registering is postpone to 3pm .... so went out to buy somethings ..... bt couldnt make it back home in time at 3 .... so call fren to help me register .... for finiancial planning .... basket .... he say got alot of error ... got back home 4 pm ..... the whole F.planning cos is close .... i curse and swear .... on the F*** up GEMS webby ... sianz 1/2 .... go astronomy .... heard frm ciwei have to buy the book .....
aiyah screw the book lar ..... it only say "student are encourge to buy the bk esitmate to cost around $30+" ..... I wont buy the book lor .... PERIOD ....encourage wat ...

then fren call .... keep bombarding me on her relationship wif her jerk .... i very sianz of tht lor .... wah kao .... want .... stay on .... dun want .... hurry the heck up and break lar .... wats there to drag ??? after all he treat her so badly ???


~= LONELY .. I AM SO LONELY ... I goT NoBody .... =~

my voice & words @ 11:54 PM

Hmmmm result out le bah .... can say quite okie ???

went to ebm instead .... of ebt ..... haha destinied frm the one above to send me to ebm ..... b4 i got the ranking option .... i was mentally prepared to go ebt .... i sat dw to think over for my future .... and tot tht ebt is nt bad after all ....
but since im over to the ebm .... then alright lor .... though i abit shock lar .... coz "xin li xiang hao yao go ebt liao" then i will abit handicapp in M .... coz i weak in english . aniwae .... im still being slot to a diff clz ....

hmmmm its a good matter .... coz no need to see nato ??? bad .... got separated frm frens ..... heard can opt out of the clz b4 the terms ends .... haha .... see bah .... if wanna opt out or stay inside ....

hmmmm recently feel like being alone ..... so went out alone to eat, cheong watch movie , etc .... LOLX ..... actually felt abit stupid to watch movie alone .... LOLX .... espically when i ask for 1 tick-s the ticket seller wil have a funny expression ???

aiyah .... also dunnoe wat to blog ... =/ hmmmmm sad DDD

my voice & words @ 4:55 AM

26 - 28 april .... was in chalet .... well ... quite fun .... appriciate the things and hardwork tht are done by the organiser ... (Org is diff frm coordinator) .....

first day:
arrive ... erm quite nth to do bah .... watch the mahjong ppl play their tiles lor ...
joke wif them abit lar .... but i didnt really care if they noe how to take the joke ....
maybe *sensitive* bah oh well ....
play Ps initial D ... LOLx .... then switch to tennis ... then very sianz ... really nth to do .. also dunnoe wat Mahjong and the terms ... so ... dunnoe wat to do ...
then miele and yu pong ask me for shearings .... LOLX i go duhz ... dunnoe wat game they playing ... say girls game i cant join in .... >< sad leh .....
Few moments later .... accompany miele go meet Kh and his fren Wei Nian ... LOLX Wn quite funny .... went to get bbq food ... then we went to changi village ... grab some bites ... LOLX ... i drag fadli along coz he sianz ... then we sat at the back of the pickup ...

2nD Day ...
haiz ... woke up ... saw elieen's arrival ... hmmm they webt breakfast wif fadli and elieen bah .... .... elieen reckon i very sianz in chalet .... then i suggested to go P.ubin ... haha ...
then heard Kh cancel the Kbox session ... so i have to put my plan on hold .... to see wat Kh wanna do .... but there was no futher words frm him ... so i proceed lor ....
then went back to around 7+ bah .... help out in the preparation in bbq .... but i think the more i help ... makes more trouble for KH ... so i went to take shower first ... very sticky .. LOLX ....
hmmm 8+ ... help to set uo the fire .... LOLX Desmond FCO .... Kh name him ... fire cheif Officer or sth .... cock leh ... ... then start cooking food bah .... LOLX .... hmmm didnt eat much ... then went back to chalet to watch tv LOLX .....
Hmmmm .... thinking of how to survive the second Night ... LOLX ... then went out wif wei nian, fadli and elieen .... grab sth lor ....

Haha ... Lost track of time .... hmmmm 30th of april is when arh ??? friday LOLX ....
hmmm went out wif kH bah ... LOLX .... go suntec jus to eat KFC .... then tio suan by him and wei Nian ... gao gao >< .... basket .... gai wo ji zhu ....

then erm i went down to collect pay cheque .... at the gateway ... while KH and "ROBERT" LOLX .... went to aranda ... to do some admin work ... *sigh*

then slack thru the wkend .... coz no work
LOLX ... sianz

then today ... really very bored ... spent the whole day designing this blog skin lor .... hope its still alright ... LOLX

my voice & words @ 7:13 PM