gheez ... its been quite awhile ... and this blog has been dead for long period of time ...
doubt anyone will read it ...

then again ... bottled quite a few things inside myself nowhere to release .... guess drafting them on blog would be quite an idea.

My feeling has been in a downward motion. Frankly speaking its just like somehow the world choose to forgo me ... everything crumbles dwn upon me.... it simply just unbearable.

im facing great dealt of stress at work. its a fucked up organisation tht labelled NSF (nation service) AS free/ cheap labour. im an young adult. i too deserve some respect and not to be kick around ... made a fool stab on the back and expect me smiling and continuing my work.

i put on my best behaviour but the organisation just disappoint me. 4 mth to go b4 my ord. i have choosen to hack care wateva is happen. i learnt to be irresponsible and choose not to be Mr nice no more.

when im get back home ... all i ever wanted was peace. but then i face the reluctant truth of my family isnt doing tht well. then my mum will start nagging. Bills starting to pour in. locking up myself in the room, blasting music thru my hi-fi prove its doesnt help to calm me in peace no more.

i start to sort for help b4 i go kaboom .... then friend recommend me to go pick guitar. i sort of help u to calm yourself dwn. indeed .. it kinda work. haaa i master quite a few pieces of song alrdy ... =P ...

Then a lady literally broke my heart ... smash them to pieces. im driven back to slumber. make matter worst ... the day she broke my heart .. i was having duty ... alrdy so sian ... so can imagine .... i practically stone tht whole night in office .... zzzz cant slp ...
Then the rest of the week just went jogging ..and whack my car on the lonely roads at night.

haiz ... its damn freaking arse to have too many combos coming at me ...
... then again ... though im "bleeding" .. at least im alive ....

think yrs later if i look back ... i will be laughing at this entry ...

my voice & words @ 1:43 PM

Basket got awaked by the howling of neighbour's dog ... zzz

since cant slp might as well blog blog abit ... lol.

hmmm recently it has been raining (i quite adore raining weather) ...
Then again ... it had great effects on my life as well ..... its like almst having dark clouds over me for the entire mth. Nothing i did goes smoothly. Work, family, personal, finance,

something great actually happens to me and im not suppose to mentioned.
then again i suppose no one will read this blog of mine =D ... i was involved in a traffic accident. make matter worst ... im in a police car ...

haiz ...it wasnt my day lar ... road was dry, wasnt raining ...traffic abit heavy i tot everything was normal going smoothly and i was en-route back to the acadamy ... and KA-BaNg ... i was hit from the back ... zzzz ... i was like so stun and dumbfounded ...

so of cos step outta of my vehicle do the necessaries ...
i had to make a police report for this matter as well ....

News quicky spread around in the acadamy tht i had the car damaged ... zzz LIEW ...

i was deeply stress by this ordeal ... im struggling to keep my head high .... i wanna have my last 6mth serving NS peacefully ....

then work began to pound on my shoulders ... im not used to the new style of working ....
i got very restless and lethagic ... but i still aimed to complete my task within my scheduled ....
though not my kind of working style ... but WTF ... just bite on loh ....

had been missing my dinner and my night jogs in compensation for my fatique.

lady luck hasnt smiled on me since the beginning of the year ....

i have been bombarded at work,
Crashed and burn with a police case ....
Struggling with financial ....
Personal issues ....

its really a miracle i didnt smoke ... zzz

my voice & words @ 6:03 AM

i despise any descrimination to my frens and i despise office politics ... nbcb !!

my objective of this post is to really curse and swear at a person.
characters for this Post: A - my previous boss who got trasferred to another dep
B- very Fuk up Bastard.
C - my current boss ... but going to advance carreer in another prospect
and A is brought back to replace him

Story goes like this ... Due to so circumstances my boss C is resigning and A was brought back to replace. Then ytd was hitching a ride from A(ex boss) together with B on board.

this bastard B ... keep decriminate C, my supervisor. keep using fouls words. i was holding back my punches ... i just treat he was farting. kept saying wat he screw up the things ...therefore trying to run away leaving a mess .

Truth wasnt this way. he cant even understand hw the finance dep works. it takes a chain of event and the lack of cooperation of BASTARDS like u all to screw up a small matters. If u think the position is tht easy ... JOLLY WELL VOLuteer and take up tht position.

worst of all case,
u ask me to tok openly if my supervisor have any flaws. Sorry ... as an assist, National Service man. a fren, i dun problems with him. i dun stab ppl unless he's like a bastard like U are.

it was abit of consolation to see A trying to defend my boss.

in my heart i really curse and swear at tht bastard. either way ... i really hope u enjoy ppl stabbing at ur back ... you make me sick

my voice & words @ 6:49 AM

001. Real name → Barry
002. Nickname(s)→ Boss
004. Zodiac sign → Leo
005. Male or female → MAN !!
006. Elementary → Holy Innocents' primary.
007. Middle School → Holy Innocents' High
008. High School-> Sgp Polytechnic
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → Short
012. Loud or Quiet → Quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → IPHONE !!!
015. Health freak → NOPE
016. Drink or Smoke? → NEVER
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes
018. Eat or Drink → Drink
019. Piercings → None
020. Tattoos → Cant do any ... but would love a transformer tat on my arm if im allowed.. LOLX ...


FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → NONE
024. First best friend → pri school fren
025. First award → Primary sch Math quiz
026. First crush → sec school days from a tution agency
027. First pet → a maltise
028. First big vacation → Hong kong
030. First big birthday → didnt even held my 21st ... wat do u think ??

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nth
050. Drinking → herbal tea
052. I'm about to → sort out my playlist in my Ipod
053. Listening to → Unbeautiful .....
054. Plans for today → 8 hours drive up to ipoh
055. Waiting for → 4d to strike


YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → 2
059. Want to get married? → to a beautiful and menticulous wife
060. Careers in mind → entreprenuership


WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL?
068. Lips or eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → None ... i prefer Long hair, nice legs .. curve lines ... Drools ...
074. Sensitive or loud → NONE !!! i dislike sensitive ladies ... and girls tht are too loud ... =D
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → erh ... bits of both ??


HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → yeash
081. Ran away from home → No
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Gun ... during training in Police academy
083. Killed somebody → in GAme ... Grand theft Autoo
084. Broken someone's heart → Its always the other way around ... zzzz
085. Been arrested → hw to when im in uniform Blue ...
087. Cried when someone died → not really ...


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → okie okie la
090. Miracles → When im desperate
091. Love at first sight → i wld think its Lust at first sight
092. Heaven → Yeap
093. Santa Claus → I didnt receive any present frm him ... think Nope
094. Sex on the first date → WOOTS !!! no Comment
095. Kiss on the first date → well mostly wont work ... but i dun mind


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → im always around her ... its up to her
to notice my presence
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → dunno ... cos im confused with my
goals
099. Do you believe in God → Yes i do
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ zzzz

my voice & words @ 9:13 PM

Sunday 18/1/08

was pretty bored ... so i took the car key drove out to punggol end ...for sight seeing and alittle joy ride ... plug in my ipod ... played music from my fav playlist ... turn up the volume ... roll dwn the window ...enjoy the breeze (cool weather out there recently ) and have a relax drive.... =D ...

think its like abt 4 yrs since i last drive into the bumpy dirt track in punngol end ... last time i went in ...was in my previous car ... and i scramp my bumper cos the car too low ... X.X (heart pain)

then i park 1 side ... see ppl fishing and whipped out me pathethic sony.E cam phone ...

sat there for abt 15 mins ... enjoy the sea breeze saw a couple of ppl fished out ikan bilis ...then i drove off ....

crappy pictures

(was siting on the ledge ... looking at the choppy waves and speedboats ... )


(still trying to caltivate my photography skills)


(this is the original picture without any settings /photoshop)


(add contrast, shadow, highlight and exposesure settings to make the sky and sea and my car looks blueish ... )


(my personal favourite ... photofiltered Orange from the picture to make it abit sunset or
retro feeling. )


there after my car was dusty from the dirt track ... went back to my block ... had a quick wash and rub down to my car to clear away the dirt .. =D


Friday 16/1/09

went to geylang with fren for makan session ... i was lost in the lor 18 ...cos i make a mistake tot meeting there .... LOLx none of them arse come save me out ... end up we park at lor 8 and walk 2 blk away to our makan place...

then as night fall we went back to retrieve our cars ... little did i know ... all the "chickens" are lining up on the roadside ...
then 2 ladies came up to me and my fren ask if we need companion ... LOLx ... i ji tao siam ... say NO need ...

the ladies are like in a "fashion competition" out to outdress each other ... see who dresses the most revealing ... me and my fren were discussing ...
"wah .. need to be till lidat meh ... !! though they look sexy ... both of us concur that they are not our cup of tea .... we are more vulnearable to the actress tht starred in MY SASSY GIRL ...
wahhahaha .... "

while heading home ... i was stuck in the jam ... near the alley of lor 10 ...
was gazing at a lady flirting ... or shld i say negotiating the price ... wahhaha ...
no hard feelings ... but i think its was kinda interesting ....

then suddenly a lady walks toward me car ... and bend dwn ... started to quote me prices .. (my window was wind down ... didnt on aircon to save petrol) ....
my face ji tao red diao ... and i roll up my window ... on the aircon full blast ...!!!

in my heart i was thinking ... "heng arh ... its a lady voice ... LOLx i dare not imagine another side of story .. " ...

what an interesting night snack ... whahahah

my voice & words @ 12:08 AM

Saturday 10 jan

went in JB to pump petrol alone @ 8am ... LOLX damn scarly ... i faster chop chop pump finish chao back singapore ... wahhahah =X

Then i went to kahki bukit to do my steering wheel leather repair ... apparantly there was a leather tear on my wheel ... had to go for a rub dwn and full respray ... but they(CHINA WORKERS) make the whole thing worst ... they spoil my button(menu selection) ... was super unhappy ... ask the boss come dwn and demanded a remendy ...

they suggested to paint the whole button to grey while they try to look for the sticker replica to be place on the button ... i agree. then things got worst the ... whole steering leather tear off ... i was so pissed off loh ... they ask me to leave the car there for 1 day ... i was like ..damn ... no way ...
haiz ... so i say ... u do wateva u can to salvage .. i come back next week ... zzz WTF man ...

then went out with fren to marina barradge to celeb her bday ... LOLX ....
the dumbest thing i did was ... i tot the barradge is near the floating platform ... so i walk all the way there and found nth .. zzz
then i walk back to DXO ... sat there listen to music ... and called another fren ask for the location ... its was then i know its was at the marina south ... WAH LAU erh ... zzz

so there i go ... marina barradge ... was a fantastic place ...SUPER amazed by the night view ... how i wish i have a SLR camera at tht time zzz intead of my crappy sony errison phone ... zzz




there after when heading back to town ... had a roadblock ... the police man spotted my Police force decal ... LOLx smile at me ... then the check my rear seat ... and let me pass through ... LOLX remind me of the first time i set rd block ... zzz

haiz overall had an eventful day ... but still quite pissed had china bastards ... i think next time i deal with them must use intelligence to overpower their fuck up cockiness ...


my voice & words @ 12:14 AM

wahhaha addicted going malaysia ytd for Operation V-power(petrol pump) ... got poison by hw cheap their stuff can be. cheap petrol, cheap car washes, cheap foods, cheap clothes no TAX !!! ....

however, cheap stuff doesnt come easy. you may heard news abt the crime rate there, and its darn true. think im also crazy to bring in my car. well i just gotta control myself and dun go in so often.
go in maybe twice every month bah cos to stock up grocessories. HIAZ hard up on cash ...so have to save money ... TSK !!!

foods price are up in SGP...reason being the recently Oil prices hike. But then prices had fell, instead the food price still standing at the price level after the oil hike.
haiz ... hard to survive in SGP ... i began to have the toils of lacking of monies ...!!!
Inflation at the wrong time ...

wahahha well cant critise the govt here on blog ... so im just gonna curse and swear in heart ... &*^#(*#^($*^ !!! ....

comes to think of it ... there isnt much to go around in SGP... i have been trying very very hard to save up each and every penny i have ... i even have to resort out to rent out my room to provide for household ultilities and a bit of spare cash for my mum ....

i dun usually go out during wkends inorder to maximised mt savings.... i prefer to pamper my car to a car wash every saturday morning ... then in the afternoon ... i will do my web design and cheong PC games or online movie or forum at home ... at night the go jogging ...

as for sunday, i'll feeling very lethagic and lazy ... cos the next day is working day ... thus ... i will usually slp late on sat night ... and slp all the way thru to sunday afternoon ....
working days are dedicated to NS... hiaz ...!!!

so frens... so sorry i havnt been hanging out ... wahhaha ...cheers ...

my voice & words @ 10:09 AM